I Just had a dream, and in this dream I was back in school but I was returning from being on the road (touring). I’m meeting all of my old friends, I’m saying hello to everyone and really appreciating the environment. In the dream I know I’ve a lot of work to do because of how much time I lost, so I make my way to class. I realize the teacher has very interesting teaching methods, she locks the door, she turns on fans while we work, has a soft bell ringing in the back ground and she also teaches with an assistant that comes in and out the class room. She leads with a specific authority, isolating some students in conversation urging them (at least from my perspective in the dream) to retain information, at one point even touching a kids face (non-violent). So she hands out a test and it has five questions on it, before the test starts the assistant teacher comes to the door gesturing to come in, there is even a desk in front of the door. So she comes in and we start working on the test, it’s a crossword puzzle. I start filling it in and realize this test has been taken before. The crossword was erased in some areas and I start to worry. Then I see that there is another paper that was handed out with a list of words. I continue to do the test filling in the crossword. I feel I have missed something. The assistant comes over because the test is over. She marks them wrong, she says you had to circle your answers on the sheet provided… I am heated. I am very snappy with the head teacher and I start to plead a case to her bringing up the fact that I had not been in this type of class and also did not hear those directions. I was talking to her with some authority, nearly talking down to her from my seat. We looked each other down, our eyes locked on each other with no words said. I wake up out of my sleep and I’m immediately upset. I’m trying to figure out why I did not hear the directions. Were they even said, was this just a situation the teachers created so that we fail or was it so that we succeeded?
I think this dream exposed different parts of my character, but this is what I will focus on. When I experience certain scenarios I tend to focus on it so much that I miss some things. I look at a experience and systematically try to explain it to myself going over reasons. The bells in the classroom, the locking of the door, the way she talked. Maybe that’s just who I am, maybe I should not try to change who I am. But when I think about that - I ask myself why did I fail? Is it that I think/obsess over the (perceived) details so much I miss things? ( that’s why I love music) Sometimes I feel like the world is not complicated ,but I feel it is. As time goes on and my age grows I feel this type of thinking will expand. I can’t tell you how It will augment over time. I only hope I don’t come to the end and find out I missed something. Have a good day people. Love Khari. Constantly working.